\u201cEn uzun yolculuktur insan\u0131n i\u00e7i\u2026\u201d
Cahit Zarifo\u011flu<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hastanede iki a\u011f\u0131r hasta… Ayn\u0131 odada… Yata\u011fa mahk\u00fbm halde ya\u015famaktalar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zaman doldurmakta, iki \u015fifadan birini beklemekteler.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Birinin yata\u011f\u0131 pencere kenar\u0131nda, di\u011feri kap\u0131ya yak\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pencere kenar\u0131nda yatmakta olan hasta, ikisinin de uyan\u0131k olduklar\u0131 zaman dilimlerinde kap\u0131 taraf\u0131ndaki kader arkada\u015f\u0131na pencereden g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerini anlat\u0131yor:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cBahar gelmi\u015f dostum, papatyalar \u015f\u0131marm\u0131\u015f, nas\u0131l g\u00fczeller bir g\u00f6rsen. Her yan yemye\u015fil. Hayat canlanmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, ku\u015flar c\u0131v\u0131ld\u0131yor. \u00c7ocuklar dostum, \u015fen \u015fakrak, okuldan evlerine da\u011f\u0131l\u0131yorlar, ne g\u00fczeller\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pencere kenar\u0131ndaki hasta hem odadaki arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015fama sevincini diri tutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmakta, hem de konu\u015fulmas\u0131 olumlu olan \u015feyler \u00fczerinden d\u00fcnyay\u0131 tan\u0131mlayarak ya\u015famaya sebep \u00fcretmektedir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kap\u0131 taraf\u0131ndaki hasta, pencere yan\u0131ndaki arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n durumuna imrenmekte, kendisi de onun g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc g\u00fczellikleri tatmak, ya\u015famak istemektedir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir gece yar\u0131s\u0131, el ayak \u00e7ekilmi\u015f, hastaneye sessizlik h\u00e2kim\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pencere kenar\u0131ndaki hastan\u0131n krizi tutar, ilac\u0131na uzan\u0131r. V\u00fccudu sars\u0131lmakta, elleri titremektedir, ilac\u0131n\u0131 yere d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fcr. Yataktan kalk\u0131p ilac\u0131n\u0131 alacak g\u00fcce sahip de\u011fildir. Kap\u0131 taraf\u0131ndaki oda arkada\u015f\u0131na seslenir:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cDostum, \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc durumday\u0131m, ses ver, uyumad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyorum. Ayn\u0131 ila\u00e7tan sende de var, bana bir tane atsana, dostum\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kap\u0131 yan\u0131ndaki hasta hi\u00e7 tepki vermez, ses \u00e7\u0131karmaz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pencere yan\u0131ndaki hasta sars\u0131l\u0131p kas\u0131lmakta, \u00f6l\u00fcme direnmektedir. Ama her zaman oldu\u011fu gibi sonunda Azrail galip gelir. Ecelle sava\u015f\u0131 kaybeden hastam\u0131z sonunda soluksuz, kaskat\u0131 kesilir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sabah olur, hasta bak\u0131c\u0131lar rutin kontroller i\u00e7in odaya girdikleri zaman durumu fark ederler. \u00d6len hastan\u0131n tavana as\u0131l\u0131 g\u00f6zlerini elleriyle kapat\u0131r, cesedi morga g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrler.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7ar\u015faf, yast\u0131k de\u011fi\u015fiminden sonra kap\u0131 taraf\u0131ndaki hasta, g\u00f6revlilerden kendisini pencere kenar\u0131ndaki yata\u011fa ta\u015f\u0131malar\u0131n\u0131 ister. G\u00f6revliler hastay\u0131 kucaklay\u0131p \u00f6nceki hastan\u0131n yata\u011f\u0131na yerle\u015ftirir, odadan \u00e7\u0131karlar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hastam\u0131z sevin\u00e7le yerine yerle\u015fir, uzun zamand\u0131r bekledi\u011fi an gelmi\u015ftir. Art\u0131k pencereden d\u0131\u015far\u0131y\u0131, masmavi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc, p\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l g\u00fcne\u015fi, c\u0131v\u0131l c\u0131v\u0131l \u00e7ocuklar\u0131, k\u0131m\u0131l k\u0131m\u0131l hayat\u0131 seyredebilecektir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Heyecan ve umutla perdeyi aralar… Bakar, ama hi\u00e7bir \u015fey g\u00f6remez.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde y\u0131llar \u00f6nce \u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, kapkara bir duvar vard\u0131r ve ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir \u015fey g\u00f6r\u00fcnmemektedir\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015eimdi siz s\u00f6yleyin bakal\u0131m, as\u0131l \u00f6len hangisi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u0131ssadan hisseyi alm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r, daha fazla a\u00e7maya gerek yok. Ben, buradan hareketle ba\u015fka \u015feyler s\u00f6yleyece\u011fim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yukar\u0131daki hik\u00e2yeyi \u00e7ocukluk y\u0131llar\u0131mda G\u00fcrb\u00fcz Azak\u2019tan okumu\u015ftum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hayat\u0131n anlam\u0131n\u0131 ararken ruhumun \u00fcst yap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 in\u015fa eden \u00e7izgilerden biriydi bu. Okudu\u011fum her sat\u0131r ya\u015famaya dair bir tav\u0131rd\u0131; dinledi\u011fim her melodi kalbimi akort ederken d\u00fczenle aram\u0131 bozuyordu ve bu kendi se\u00e7imimdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7o\u011funlu\u011fun kap\u0131 taraf\u0131ndaki hastay\u0131 model almay\u0131 tercih etti\u011fi d\u00fcnyada, ben k\u00f6r pencerede nak\u0131\u015flar g\u00f6rmeyi se\u00e7tim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
G\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in illa g\u00f6z \u015fart de\u011fil efendim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ben kitaplardan su i\u00e7tim, y\u0131ld\u0131zlarla beslendim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Babam haftalard\u0131r solunum makinesine ba\u011fl\u0131, yo\u011fun bak\u0131mdayd\u0131, \u201cDurumu nas\u0131l?\u201d diye sordular; \u201cHerkes gibi\u201d, dedim. \u201cA\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r, nefes nefes \u00f6l\u00fcyor!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yirmi birinci y\u00fczy\u0131lda bir g\u00fcn, \u201chayat\u0131n ola\u011fan karma\u015fas\u0131\u201d i\u00e7inde, her \u015feye ra\u011fmen bu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 okumakta \u0131srar ediyorsan\u0131z, yani h\u00e2l\u00e2 herkesten farkl\u0131 olarak, okumak ve d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek \u00fczerine bir hayat bina ediyorsan\u0131z, bu da sizin se\u00e7iminiz\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yudum yudum, nefes nefes ya\u015f\u0131yorsunuz demektir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00d6yleyse aram\u0131za ho\u015f geldiniz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00d6yleyse, a\u015fk olsun!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u201cEn uzun yolculuktur insan\u0131n i\u00e7i\u2026\u201dCahit Zarifo\u011flu Hastanede iki a\u011f\u0131r hasta… Ayn\u0131 odada… Yata\u011fa mahk\u00fbm halde ya\u015famaktalar. Zaman doldurmakta, iki \u015fifadan birini beklemekteler. Birinin yata\u011f\u0131 pencere kenar\u0131nda, di\u011feri kap\u0131ya yak\u0131n. Pencere kenar\u0131nda yatmakta olan hasta, ikisinin de uyan\u0131k olduklar\u0131 zaman dilimlerinde kap\u0131 taraf\u0131ndaki kader arkada\u015f\u0131na pencereden g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerini anlat\u0131yor: \u201cBahar gelmi\u015f dostum, papatyalar \u015f\u0131marm\u0131\u015f, nas\u0131l g\u00fczeller bir […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":14002,"featured_media":161248,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_yoast_wpseo_focuskw":"Ya\u015famak","_yoast_wpseo_title":"","_yoast_wpseo_metadesc":"Okudu\u011fum her sat\u0131r ya\u015famaya dair bir tav\u0131rd\u0131; dinledi\u011fim her melodi kalbimi akort ederken d\u00fczenle aram\u0131 bozuyordu ve bu kendi se\u00e7imimdi.","_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"footnotes":"","_yoast_wpseo_focuskw_text_input":""},"categories":[9240],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n