D\u00fcnya\u2026
Seni sonsuz sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir zamanlar hayat\u0131n hi\u00e7 bitmeyece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Anne, baba, karde\u015flerle b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz o kalabal\u0131k g\u00fcnlerin, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fun o bitmeyen sokaklar\u0131n\u0131n hep bizimle kalaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 san\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sonra b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130nsan kendi hayat\u0131n\u0131n hik\u00e2yesini yazmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Kimi sayfalar ailemizle birlikte yaz\u0131ld\u0131, kimi sayfalar yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n sessizli\u011finde\u2026 Kimi hik\u00e2yeleri herkes g\u00f6rd\u00fc, kimilerini ise yaln\u0131zca biz bildik. Gizli sakl\u0131, kimseye anlat\u0131lmayan, y\u00fcre\u011fimizin bir k\u00f6\u015fesinde saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z nice hik\u00e2yeler\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hayat bazen zorlu, bazen \u015fahane ge\u00e7ti.
G\u00fcld\u00fck, a\u011flad\u0131k.
Sevdik, k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131k.
Kaybettik, yeniden ba\u015flad\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bazen kalabal\u0131klar\u0131n i\u00e7inde yaln\u0131z kald\u0131k, bazen bir tek insan\u0131n yan\u0131nda koca bir d\u00fcnyaya s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ve bir g\u00fcn\u2026
Aynaya bakt\u0131k.
Sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z a\u011farm\u0131\u015f.
\u201cZaman ne zaman ge\u00e7ti?\u201d diye sorduk kendimize.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Oysa zaman hi\u00e7 durmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Su gibi ak\u0131p gitmi\u015fti. Biz hayat\u0131n i\u00e7inde y\u00fcr\u00fcrken, y\u0131llar sessizce omuzlar\u0131m\u0131zdan ge\u00e7ip gitmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015eimdi d\u00f6n\u00fcp geriye bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, yeniden ya\u015famak istedi\u011fim ne \u00e7ok \u015fey oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir \u00e7ocukluk sabah\u0131n\u0131\u2026
Annemin sesini\u2026
Babam\u0131n bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131\u2026
Karde\u015flerle ayn\u0131 sofrada oturdu\u011fumuz g\u00fcnleri\u2026
Gen\u00e7li\u011fin o tela\u015fs\u0131z sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ama asl\u0131nda ne kadar k\u0131sa olan y\u0131llar\u0131n\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ke\u015fke diyorum bazen.
Ke\u015fke baz\u0131 g\u00fcnlere yeniden d\u00f6nebilseydim.
Ke\u015fke baz\u0131 insanlara bir kez daha sar\u0131labilseydim.
Ke\u015fke baz\u0131 anlar\u0131n k\u0131ymetini ya\u015farken bilebilseydim.
Ama olmuyor.
Hayat geriye do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fcyor.
Ge\u00e7mi\u015fin kap\u0131lar\u0131 birer birer kapan\u0131yor.
Geriye yaln\u0131zca hat\u0131ralar kal\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Belki de insan\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck hazinesi budur: Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fczel g\u00fcnleri kalbinin bir yerinde saklamak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015eimdi biliyorum\u2026
D\u00fcnya sonsuz de\u011filmi\u015f.
Zaman da bizim sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kadar uzun de\u011filmi\u015f.
Me\u011fer hayat, avu\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n aras\u0131ndan kayan incecik bir kum tanesiymi\u015f.
Ah d\u00fcnya\u2026
Beni sonsuz sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n belki.
Ben de seni sonsuz sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.
Oysa ikimiz de ge\u00e7iciydik.
\u015eimdi sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131n aklar\u0131na bak\u0131p ge\u00e7mi\u015fe g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ve i\u00e7imden sessizce s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum:
\u201cNe \u00e7ok ya\u015fanacak \u015fey varm\u0131\u015f\u2026
Ne \u00e7abuk ge\u00e7mi\u015f zaman\u2026
Ve ne yaz\u0131k ki baz\u0131 g\u00fczellikleri yeniden ya\u015famak art\u0131k imk\u00e2ns\u0131z.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
D\u00fcnya\u2026Seni sonsuz sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Bir zamanlar hayat\u0131n hi\u00e7 bitmeyece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Anne, baba, karde\u015flerle b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz o kalabal\u0131k g\u00fcnlerin, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fun o bitmeyen sokaklar\u0131n\u0131n hep bizimle kalaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 san\u0131rd\u0131m. Sonra b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck. \u0130nsan kendi hayat\u0131n\u0131n hik\u00e2yesini yazmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Kimi sayfalar ailemizle birlikte yaz\u0131ld\u0131, kimi sayfalar yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n sessizli\u011finde\u2026 Kimi hik\u00e2yeleri herkes g\u00f6rd\u00fc, kimilerini ise yaln\u0131zca biz bildik. Gizli sakl\u0131, kimseye anlat\u0131lmayan, y\u00fcre\u011fimizin […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":13998,"featured_media":160116,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_yoast_wpseo_focuskw":"zaman","_yoast_wpseo_title":"","_yoast_wpseo_metadesc":"Bir zamanlar hayat\u0131n hi\u00e7 bitmeyece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. O kalabal\u0131k g\u00fcnlerin, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fun o bitmeyen sokaklar\u0131n\u0131n hep bizimle kalaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 san\u0131rd\u0131m.","_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"footnotes":"","_yoast_wpseo_focuskw_text_input":""},"categories":[8889],"tags":[11729,11761],"yoast_head":"\n